Sometimes I feel like we died and went to heaven and we are all meeting on the other side now. Everyone is here. And everyone is so kind. Everyones friendly. The lions lie down with the lamb etc….. you know
It’s Time outside of time (again). And I hear the ice cream truck every day, every day. So maybe we are dead
I would like to lie down in a flowerbed and rest for a while. Spring is too much for the human heart. I say all these things you already know, it’s just common truths. I’m not better than that.
I have forsaken my blog sorry. I got a role in a play and we are rehearsing every day now. Everyone is so nice.
hello my little friends, I am live blogging again, straight from the bar at the very best place in town. I used to work here you know. It’s the oldest establishment in town, even in the world, they say. It’s very dark in here, always. It reminds me of this great Swedish novel, Gentlemen, where they write about an apartment where ”night was always a possibility”. Here the night is also always a possibility, but also it’s like this place exists outside of time and outside of seasons. It has great mystery. I love this place, and when I worked here, I used to think it was like a big old ship and I was a sailor or a pirate, giving a piece of my soul to this ship to keep forever. I think I could die in here. I loved working here. It’s haunted of course, and after closing, when we had turned all the chairs upside down and only one candle was burning, time had a funny way of standing still and you would hear all kinds of things. Simon just gave me a drink called a Martinez, which he described as ”the grand father of the dry martini”. He is the bartender and he is British, he taught me what a Bees knees is (it’s a drink with equal parts honey, gin and lemon juice). Okay I could say a hundred more things about this place but I am now getting tipsy from the Martinez and also Ella just turned up and sat down on the bar stool beside me so bye bye
good morning dear blog readers. i woke up at 7 and decided to get out immediately and walk the scenic part of the route to school/the workshop. I have learned how to blog from my iPhone which is why I’m writing more often, like on my way and stuff.
There is so much spring stuff going on. Like, calendar-stuff. I love calendar stuff, it kind off marks and structures the passing of time and seasons. The other day the clock was set forward one hour, we call it summer time, but I guess in English that’s called daylight savings or something like that? Summer time sounds way more fun. Daylight savings sounds kind of economic and boring. And last week it was spring equinox. Like the day and the night were equally long, which seems to me very poetic. As usual in spring a strong feeling of melancholic longing is inhabiting the body. This strong longing for something you don’t know what it is is really a little cruelty of the springtime, but I guess all of the trees and flowers and deer and bunny rabbits and birds and all of nature feels it too, so in a way it’s a nice thing to just be part of nature, there is a sense of belonging. Ella had planted a lot of different seeds and she showed them because they were now green plants stretching up out of the soil and reaching straight up towards the sun. I thought it was a very powerful sight and she laughed at me but i swear if that is not longing then i don’t know what is!!
I am now in the workshop drinking instant coffee, instant coffee is nice. Rewatched Gilda with Rita Hayworth the other night, an ex bf once told me she reminded him of me, but now after seeing it again I feel that was not very much of a compliment. The whole movie she is very toxic and is playing mind games and acting like a tall child, but on the other hand, she has incredible hair and aura. Why should anyone want to be the femme fatale anyway? They never get the guy and they are always in trouble and they almost always die in the end. Those days are over!
Anyways here is my spring playlist https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0iUXYE9lxPUQGfMGn3NpPg?si=uafkDtRhRumjsekUH5xBkA&pi=n3490hD-SKqQU
